From Broken into Beautiful
Welcome to a Real Life Transformation of Dodye Lord-Lloyd, the Spiritual daughter of Pastor(s) Donald and Charlene Johnson; the Founders of Real Life Transformation Center. Even though I was a FaceBook friend of theirs since 2012 due to ministry, I had never met this Kingdom Tag Team until December 13, 2016. Even then, I only began to know Pastor Charlene via messenger after I reached out to her privately because I had been drawn to her Facebook Live video airing that day titled; Matching Your Makeup. Pastor Charlene was saying on the FB Live video "Discover who you are. What we do may not be matching our makeup leaving unrest on the inside of us. We need to to take the limits off ourselves if we know we can't fail in our lives. We have to discover the fulfillment with in us. We need to learn these 3 things: 1) Self Discovery - Why speaks to Purpose! What speaks to Potential! Where are you going? What is your destiny. See yourself on the outside as what you can see on the inside. 2) Self Manifestation - It is you coming through the process; the transformation process. Stand out and go through, embracing the opposition to that higher level. Don't abort the process, learn from it and grow through the process. 3) Self Release - There is so much potential trapped on the inside of you. Humanity needs what is on the inside of us. Release yourself to become yourself."
Those words captured me December 13, 2016 when I was under a heavy spirit of depression since my adopted father had died May 3, 2016 and I endured church hurt 2 weeks later vowing I would not go back to a church for a very long time. I was completely broken into pieces laying on my bedroom floor. She told me that I needed to take a leap which confused me even more but decided to take a risk driving to my first Vertical Leap Experience in Ontario, CA in January 2017, where I finally met Pastor Don & Charlene Johnson. My life was forever impacted that weekend. I have now gone to 3 Vertical Leaps and can't wait for whatever promises are waiting for me in this new year, 2018.
During 2017, I went through so much healing and deliverance after asking Pastor's Don and Charlene if they would pray about being my Spiritual parents. They said "yes" not understanding the Impact they both would have in my heart but our Manufacturer sure did. I believe a desire of my heart was finally fulfilled although at times I wasn't sure what I had just asked of them. I began to be drawn to their vision, their purpose, and that word we all use so loosely; "Love!" The word love to me meant being used and abused by so many people including being neglected and rejected by my biological parents, being sexually and physically abused by my foster and adopted parents until I left in the middle of the night in 1989. I just felt through-out my life that I was everyone's new toy and when the warranty was up on me due to me becoming rebellious and pushing back emotionally to many people, I was thrown to the curb as their dirty garbage.
The strongholds of my the mind seemed to be like a whirlwind that couldn't be controlled as the torment has spun its web with deceit from words and expectations placed on me too painful even to repeat so I had compartmentalized pain into areas deep within creating new layers as the brokenness has captured me into a pit filled with poisonous lies and memories that haunted me causing my vision to become blind by the enemy himself. Through the Love I received by Mom Charlene, my heart began to be pulled towards the light penetrating the darkness that had once hovered over me. The darkness had been caused by horrific memories of childhood abuse and I soon learned to take off the lenses prescribed by the expectations that no longer could I even achieve this greatness that so many people said I was anointed and appointed for in my life. I began to understand my purpose for living was not in people but was I was predestined for 48 years ago. I understood last year that being broken on my knees was due to a hand grasping mine from out of the darkness of my past giving me hope to want to live and speak life into dead situations.
I had to raise a white flag in surrender and take time out to understand the value and worth that was created deep within me while I was yet being formed in my biological mother's womb. I no longer had to to keep climbing mountains of rejections or be a part of a society of people crawling through filthy wastelands filled with anger and bitterness that had kept me bound due to my spirit man giving up because I had spent years listening to all the tapes repeatedly playing of “how I wasn’t good enough?" My vision for years had been full of silver figures dancing to a beat with a surround sound so loud that my mind had been confused causing spiritual blindness to keep me in a place filled with anxiety. In 2017, I came out from under the heaviness of shattered dreams and feeling unworthy; at one point I was so full of hopelessness until I was introduced at Vertical Leap to my birthrights. I soon leaned during the healing process in 2017, with my spiritual parents to stand in my birthrights of "confidence, courage, belief, faith, and trusting in my God as the source of my hope." (Al Hollingsworth, Founder of Vertical Leap & B.O.S.S. the Movement)
If I can encourage you today, know you are all beautiful regardless of the tests you have endured at the hands of others. Yes, I had to be broken at the altar crying out in surrender to my Father. I had to admit my pride asking my father to cleanse my vision with the clay that he purified with his love using the healing Balm of Gilead as the healing ointment so I could see clearly what He had created me to do in the kingdom. With many hours praying over me and infusing me with the Love of the Father through my Spiritual parents; I rose from the ashes of defeat, declaring and decreeing all that had held me back from the birthing chair of purpose was removed in 2017? I took off the garments that have been soaked with tears of pain from a life that seemed unfair that had caused the seams to be undone no longer covering my bruised body. I became vulnerable to a healing process through the arms of a spiritual mother and father this past year regardless how uncomfortable it was at times. I had finally felt safe enough to step into healing and wholeness causing a joy to fill me that had been stolen by the enemy through the birthing canal of my mother named Joy.
The IMPACT of the Kingdom Tag Team; my Spiritual Parents, Pastor or Coach to you as the reader today, I now know that Jesus is a Father to the fatherless even when we have been abandoned or feeling like the orphaned child struggling to survive the nightmares of past hurts, habits, and hang-ups. My pieces of promiscuity need to be broken from the soul ties of those who had hurt me in the past. I fully opened my heart up this past year allowing the little child to be released once and for all from the prison of pain and laid broken in my Father's arms as He already had created me and you to be beautiful in His image. You can Allow the Father to heal the scars of an aborted hope or a miscarriage of the spiritual baby created on the inside of you by stepping into your destiny.
Broken into Beautiful can be reflected back to each of us as washing off the concealer that has held us all together on the outside, deceiving even those closest to you in your today. Our foundations may have been mismatched makeup when we first began to notice our flaws from the shame and guilt wearing on many of us as we looked into the mirror seeing failure causing fear to smother our pores that were meant to breath and not be clogged by life's challenges. Restoration is the hand being extended to you if you will reach out and grab a hold; don’t let the enemy keep you in bondage any longer. Greatness is waiting for you to introduce you to Vision in the reflection starring back at you and Purpose is beckoning you today to walk onto the bridge over the troubled past – the water created by the many tears captured as you cried out in pain each day the enemy laid hands on his creation. No longer do you have to be confused in your mind as you can create a new belief system by walking in your birthrights of confidence in whose you are, be courageous and begin the healing process. He is your hope always even when you feel He may have left you even though He never forsook you. You may have Faith as small as mustard seed but Trust in your Manufacture only and keep the shield up stopping the fiery darts of the enemy as he has tried to kill many of his sons and daughters. Remember He is the source of your hope and no one else.
There is a strength in brokenness through the healing and wholeness that will overcome you like that of the silt spun by the caterpillar desiring to be a new creation who can fly above the crawling serpents and scorpions of the earth. The process from being Broken into Beautiful is a very intimate process as His blood is sufficient for everything that was done to you that was not according to the plans in which you are purposed in the release due to your arms raised in surrender. The fibers of His being are entangling you all with vibrant colors created by His Grace, covering and bringing us out of the darkness into His light. It is time for freedom to consume each one of us as His Sons and Daughters allowing us to soar as high as we choose to go but aligning our heart, soul, and mind as one. Fly close to His heart as we forgive and forget those memories and experience freedom as love spreads throughout our being. Remember we are destined for greatness and only we can hold ourselves back from the plans and purpose designed for us before we were even a thought or conceived in our mother’s womb.
Being attached to the Vision of Pastor's Don and Charlene has taught me to "Get Wisdom! Get Understanding! Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom. And in all your getting, get understanding." (Proverbs 4:5, 7) I have been hidden this past year in a secret place so healing and wholeness could take place. The time they both spent mentoring and counseling me this past year has been such a deep blessing; I feel I gained a wealth that I have now stored as a spiritual treasure enabling me to gain a deeper perspective of whose I belong too. This Kingdom Tag Team woke me up to dream again.
"There will be times while you are on your journey to your destiny that the tour guide will challenge you and give you a more effective way to do the will of God. He may change the way He did it in the past because He has received more instructions from God. The question to you is, "Are you a climbing companion? Are you a committed disciple? Can you be relied and depended upon. Climbing Companion's are the ones that climb up, step over, and rearrange their lives to get to their destiny. They make the necessary changes and adjustments because they realize that their total dependency is upon God." (2006. Johnson, Don and Charlene Johnson. Window Shopper's. pg. 42.) I am a Climbing Companion now, after a year of healing from broken into beautiful because my Spiritual parents didn't leave me but came after the 1 that needed her legs to be broken like a sheep wrapped around the neck of a shepherd until I could learn to walk again in a healed process. I am called to their Vision, to serve them in whatever capacity God asks of me. 2018 promises to be a year of Release, Renewal, and a Refreshing. Thank you Dad and Mom Johnson for all you sowed into me. Love You Both!
Be Broken So Beautiful can be seen by those just starting in their healing process.